Love More

Since my last - a little over dramatic - post. I have been thrown into a world of reality, making me grateful for what I have, because - comparatively, life is good.  I was in the waiting room at the Juravinski Cancer center with a client from work, when I ran into someone who I knew. We said hi and chatted. Then I realized where we were sitting.... I fucking hate cancer (strong word I know but that's how much I hate it) I have seen too many people of all ages that I know succumb to this disease. I have seen too many people I know lose people they love because of it. It just sucks, and everytime you hear of someone else you know being diagnosed it is like a punch in the stomach. I have also seen people I know fight - and become strong individuals because of the disease. Yes, I have witnessed cancer destroying bodies, but I have also seen the strengthening of souls. Also, A woman who I go to church with just found out that the rare disease her only child has - is fatal. ...

Today I have felt nothing but frustration. There was not a particular event that happened today to cause the frustration. . . I just am. It started while I was doing my devotions, just a feeling of sheer annoyance in the pit of my stomach, and I haven't been able to shake it. I prayed about it, tried to figure out why . . . and really my only conclusion is Satan is not too happy with the current arrangement I have with God. The tables have turned in my life. I am frustrated because they told me to "slow down" in my physio routine because I have been feeling a slight pain in my knee and there is some reoccurring bruising. I thought physio is where I am supposed to thrive and push it, not slow down. I am frustrated because I have been waiting 8 weeks for my employment insurance, which I am entitled to, to arrive. Yesterday I got a letter in the mail saying I am not eligible because I don't have a medical certificate. It took them 8 weeks to inform me of this, I have bee...

I filled in my calendar for the month of December. It's going to be a busy month. I LOVE IT! My days are filled with school prep, shifts at work, Christmas/Birthday parties, church functions and just pure awesomeness. Oh and physio three times a week . . . which I LOVE. The last two months have been very low key while recovering from knee surgery, very low key. But now life is busy, there is routine again - well a routine that doesn't involve: Waking up, going to physio, coming home, sitting on the couch watching TLC till bed time - repeat. I find joy in routine, in having things to do, having things to look forward to. I love that I am working again. Have I mentioned how great my job is, how fulfilling it is. Sometimes I complain about work, not sure why. Mostly because it is shift work. If you ever hear me complain about work, please tell me to shut up and remind me that I really do have the best job ever. So stop whining. I am continuing my Captivating journey. The book is l...